Today I picked up Eric from school. Usually I can see him playing through the window of his classroom and he starts bawling the moment I open the door as if he thinks I will leave him there again.

Today he didn't cry. He just walked up to me and put his arms up for me to pick him up. Then we went to his classroom to get his coat and he plucked his lunchbox off the shelf and handed it to me. SO cute.

I had less than warm fuzzies about his daycare today. They only changed him twice and his diaper was very wet when I changed it today. And he had a little diaper rash on his tushie, which he almost NEVER has.

I miss him so much when I'm at work. Rich is cranking away on his job-search. He's really networking aggressively with everybody he knows. He's applying for jobs left and right. Hopefully he'll get some more interviews soon. I keep seeing part time IT jobs on craigslist and I really want to apply for them. But there's no point until we know what and where Rich will be working. He got a call today from a recruiter for a software engineering job back at Teradyne. I thought that was pretty funny.

I really want to work part time. It's just so idyllic. I make some money, more than enough to cover Eric's daycare and I get to spend more time with my son. Right now he's closer to Rich than to me, and that hurts a little. But I feel really selfless about it in a way. Rich is with him more than me, so he's kind of in the "mommy" role. I'm just happy that Eric seems so happy and safe with his parents. But I feel like I'm missing out. Rich is just so much better at playing with him than me. I get so bored after a few hours, but Rich is the duracell battery of parenthood. He can make lego towers for Eric to knock down for hours. But the older he gets the easier it is for me to play with him. He likes to bring me books and sit in my lap while I read them.

ok, I'm rambling.

I'll stop now. Need sleep...